Proof that I may in fact be getting better at playing the piano in public arrived Saturday, based on things that did NOT happen:
I did not have a panic attack, like I did last time.
I did not tell myself I would just lock myself in the bathroom before my name was called, ensuring that I wouldn’t have to perform.
I did not spend five minutes rationalizing in my head why it was crazy to go out there and play an instrument I’ve only been learning for two years, in front of a few hundred people.
So, yeah, Saturday’s piano recital was definitely better for me. I felt much more confident in the songs I was playing (for the historical record, I played a duet with my teacher called “March of the English Guard,” and then solo I played “Mr. Brahms’ Famous Lullaby”), and while I did make one note mistake in the duet, it wasn’t obvious to anyone besides me, who has been practicing the damn song for three months.
I am thoroughly enjoying the challenge of learning this instrument, and especially the challenge of learning new songs. I’ve definitely improved my note-reading over the past few months; now I’m confident that if my hands start a song in the right place, I’ll be able to figure out the rest of the notes.
It was an odd feeling, Saturday, playing in front of about 100 people (I was one of only two “grown-up” performers); about midway through my second song I had this calm feeling come over me. It was something like, “I know what I’m doing here, I’m playing the right notes, I’m in control of this!”
It was strange, because I haven’t had that feeling too often while learning. But I definitely feel like I’m getting better.
I am, of course, nowhere near as good as my 9.5 year old son, as Nate is playing much more complicated songs than I am. But I love that he and I are doing this together, even if he gets annoyed when I’m practicing sometimes and yell to him “Nate, Daddy has a question, can you come here for a sec?”
I think it’s so, so important to keep challenging your brain as you get older. Learning piano in my late 40s is much more difficult than if I’d learned in my 20s. But that’s OK. I’ll never get to Carnegie Hall, but I’m just happy to keep getting better.
Now my other son booing and hissing from the audience, that I could do without (nooooo).
If you’re thinking of doing something you’ve never done before, be it learn an instrument, a language, a life skill… go for it. It’s never, ever too late.
**Next, I’m not sure who put this together, it may have been Jimmy Kimmel and his staff, but if I were Joe Biden and his campaign team I’d run this every night in all 50 states.
In just 60 seconds, watch how absolutely wrong Donald Trump has been, with everything he predicted would happen in 2020, if he didn’t get re-elected.
I mean… this is absolute gold. As I said in 2016 and 2020, it is insane that this is going to be a close election.
 **And finally today, word came down late Tuesday night that Willie Mays, the greatest ballplayer ever, has died at age 93.
I am too young to have seen Mays play, but everything I’ve seen and read, and heard bears out what an unbelievable player he was. Of course he’s most famous for the basket catch he made in the 1954 World Series, but he’s so much more than that. He was such a smooth player, at the plate and at the field, and had every tool you could ever ask for in a player.
His incredible career for the Giants was probably the best ever for any major league player, and his passing is an enormous one.
It also leads to a fascinating question: For many years now Mays has been considered the greatest living ballplayer. Now that he has died, who holds that title? I threw this out to some friends of mine Tuesday night, and put it on Twitter, and got lots of good answers back. Ken Griffey, Jr. Rickey Henderson. Mike Schmidt. Johnny Bench. Ichiro. Shohei Ohtani (too soon). And of course, Barry Bonds and Roger Clemens, who will forever be tainted by steroids.
My first inclination, after thinking about it for a few minutes, was Bench. Just a tremendous catcher, hitter and leader. But it might just be Henderson, who changed the game with his speed, and had an incredible career.
It’s a fun parlor game, with no “right” answer.
But Willie Mays was one hell of a ballplayer. Nobody better, ever. Rest in peace to the Say Hey Kid.